May 2, 2015

Some things I've learned as a Mommy (to twins)

They tell you that your life will change once you have babies. You half listen and think yeah okay and go about your day. I'm telling you now...LIFE CHANGES ONCE YOU HAVE BABIES! And I'm not talking about things like you can't go out to have a drink anymore, you can't sleep in, you can't just go anywhere at the drop of a hat. All of those things are part of the change but what I'm talking about is the small things you didn't foresee when the 3 dozen people tried warning you while you were still pregnant and semi carefree.

Everything and I mean EVERYTHING is rushed. It could be the smallest of chores but you better get it done as quickly as possible before you're interrupted to a crying baby or to a doggy that has to go outside to pee. I can't tell you how many times I thought it was safe to run to the bathroom to pee really quick only to be stopped and have to go do something else. And food, I'm really not sure how I haven't lost more weight because who has time to eat! And with breastfeeding twins I'm always starving!
Your job is never done. There was that one time that I thought oh the babies are sleeping I'm going to go take a bath and maybe try to get past the first chapter on that new book I started only to be reminded that there is a pile of dirty bottles to be washed, I am an hour past my pumping time, and when the heck was the last time the dogs were out!? It seems like there's not enough hours in a day. You get done with one thing to only move on to the next. I try to finish what I'm doing so I don't have to go back to it multiple times. These failed attempts are comical in a way because if I was an outsider looking in you would see me as that clutsy always fumbling character who has a spinning head and six arms going in every direction. That's how I see myself in my mind anyway.


Funnily enough as I write this I am staring at the monitor watching both babies toss and turn and I know within minutes I will be pulled away. So scrub that toilet with lightning fast arms, spin like a tornado through your house picking up all the toys and the half attempts at chores and realize that no matter what you have planned for the day probably will not get done.

There are plenty more things that I have learned along this 10 month journey so far but right now I have a little guy who is smiling at the camera waiting for me to come get him and a little girl who if I don't go get quickly will turn into a little diva!

Apr 28, 2015

Things I want my babies to know.

I tell my babies things whether it's while they are sleeping and I whisper it into their ear or when we're driving in the car or just while we're playing. It's things that I want them to know, that I need them to hear. They are only 9 months so I know they have no idea what I'm saying but I feel better knowing that I told it to them.

So here are a few things that I want you two cuties to know...

1.  Your Daddy is the best father there could ever be. He loves you both so much. I see it in little ways, like when he's laying you down to sleep I will peek at the video monitor and watch him kiss your foreheads.
It's in the way he feeds you your diner and he will scoop up the food and drop it a few times just so he gets just the perfect amount on the spoon.
He will tell you each that he loves you about 20 times within an hour. I think the love for you both is so overwhelming for him that he has to get the I love you's out so he doesn't burst!

2.  Every moment away from you both is the longest minute possible. I feel bad every morning I leave you both to go to work. But my goal of a beautiful house for you both to grow up in and make wonderful memories keeps me motivated and helps me to know that I am making the right decision.

3. You are so loved by so many. Your families love you both to pieces. I see it in the way they interact with you both and in the way they are so happy when you two are around. You have  wonderful people on both sides of the family that will love you both forever.

4. One day you two will be best friends just like Mommy is with her two brothers Uncle Jim and Uncle Loren. You two might fight and you might get terribly mad at each other but I hope you always come back to each other stronger than before. There will be no better best friend than each other.

5.  Mommy and Daddy have always had to work so hard to get the things we want from life and I want you both to be the same way. Nothing comes easy my loves and the hard work you put in makes it that much better when you succeed. You will get to see all of your efforts pay off. This concept goes towards anything you want in life not just for things you want to be but ...Work, Relationships, Friendships, and anything that matters. I promise you that if you work hard and put in the effort that your outcome will be worth it all!

6. Cherish who you are. You are perfect. Whether you know it or not you are exactly how you were supposed to be. Your beliefs and your opinions make up you. Don't be afraid to be different, don't be worried about what anyone else is doing because by staying true to yourself you are setting yourself for happiness.

There are plenty more things I want you guys to know but those are just a few important ones. I love you both so much and I am so excited that I was chosen to be your Mommy. I'm not sure if I'm doing everything right but I sure do try. You two are my everything! XoXo!

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